Awake all night happens because dinner takes longer than you thought it would to prepare. Awake all night happens because dinner takes hours longer than you thought it would to eat. Awake all night happens because everything ALWAYS takes longer than you thought to clean up. And I still haven’t learned that!
Bed for me this night is 10:20ish.
Awake all night happens because I then remember the soccer uniform I promised to wash but didn’t yet and so I head back downstairs.
Bedtime (again) about 10:45ish.
Awake all night happens because even in bed, I still have work to do for the college class I need to take to update my teaching license. Lights out by 11:30ish.
Awake all night happens because I am a single mom and here for my children.
First wake up call from Kaleb around 1 am.
Later, he falls out of his toddler bed about 1:45. I respond to the second call.
Awake all night because I can’t fall back to sleep and it’s probably a good thing because I am called in again around 2:30 by Kaleb and George, who is an amazing big brother even in the middle of the night.
Finally, I end up moving Kaleb out of his toddler bed and into George’s bed which is a full size on the bottom of Noah’s twin bunk. We arrange ourselves into semi-comfortable sleeping positions. Kaleb, with his head on my chest, lies horizontally across the bed. George and I are left clinging to the edges of the bed while Kaleb finally falls asleep.
I lay there in the dark and stroke his downy soft hair. I listen to his breathing which is sounding better and think his respiratory infection is going away – finally! I look at the thermometer glowing from atop the dresser across the room. 67 degrees. The last two winters we were so cold all the time.
I realize for about the millionth time today how blessed we are.
I know that I have to be up at 5:15 Monday morning (today!) and it’s 4:34 now. I know I have slept maybe three hours. I know I have an exhaustion headache already. I know I’ll have 6 cups of coffee and go to the bathroom 23 times in the next four hours. I know.
But I also know that I would much rather be awake all night and exhausted WITH my children, than well rested without them.
Awake all night happens because I love them and they love me. Awake all night happens because I am blessed. Awake all night happens because God gave me five amazing gifts.
Thank you God and good night <3