Being pregnant and abandoned opened my eyes to a world had not known before, and I am beginning Single Mom Smiling with an understanding of the world I could not have had before becoming a single parent.
I was five months pregnant with our fifth little boy when my husband suddenly announced he was leaving and moved out only a week later. Being pregnant and abandoned suddenly and becoming a single parent was a painful, shocking experience for me, and it is an experience I would not wish on anyone. It opened my eyes to things I had not experienced on such a level before: fear, injustice, humiliation, insecurity, exhaustion, and unspeakable pain.
Becoming a single parent also opened my eyes to things I needed to be responsible for, to poor choices I had made, to how I had accepted mistreatment, and to how deeply my decisions affect my children’s lives and the lives of those around me. These choices were by no means limited to the relationship I had with my husband.
More than anything though, this experience opened my eyes to my own value and to the incredible capacity of those around me to love me when I needed them most whether I deserved it or not. There are no words to express the gratitude I carry in my heart every day for so many who have touched our lives. I mean to keep my promise to pay it forward.