Two days before the Feast of Our Lady of Lourdes, I woke already tired. For the past several weeks, I’d been on an arduous journey of Marian Consecration. In about 48 hours the Consecration would be done. I wasn’t giving up on doing it someday, but there were too many unanswered questions for me to consecrate myself now.
In the quiet darkness before my boys awoke, I got a cup of tea, wrapped myself in the blanket I’d left on the couch the night before, and again pulled up Leila’s email. This morning I would give her words the attention they deserved.
She began…“Trust the Church. Lean not on your own understanding.” Leila didn’t know it, but, “Lean not on your own understanding,” was the verse I clung to after the Sandy Hook massacre. When my eyes closed and tears stung my lids, I could still see those little faces. I may never know why Sandy Hook happened, but if we could trust the Lord with such pure little souls, how else would He want us to trust? Was Leila’s use of this Scripture another coincidence that wasn’t coincidence or just a common Christian catchphrase?Continue Reading