Five years and four months ago my ex-husband made his sudden announcement. Five years and four months ago, I began the most incredible journey filled with more hardship and struggle, pain and fear and heartache than I could ever have envisioned.
Five years and four months ago I would have traded almost anything to have my husband back, to have the life I thought we had, to have my illusions held in one piece.
Five years and four months ago, I couldn’t have known how much more there was to life, how much more there was to challenge, how much more I needed to grow or how great the holy Spirit’s strength would be as He supported me and held me upright when alone I would have caved.
I had no idea then, how amazing God’s Timing would be when things started to fall into place. Five years and four months ago, I could not have known that I could still be at peace and believe in God’s plans even when my plans crumbled one after another right in front of my eyes.
God’s Plans.
It’s an amazing thing for me to write that phrase. God’s Plans.
I say it over and over to myself, but this time, there is an awe in my heart, a joy in my smile, and a peace inside that wants to burst out and be shared with others. It’s a strange thing. Over the past few years, as the shock and negativity wore off, as I learned what the man I had loved was capable of and not capable of, the peace within me grew as I came to accept what I could not change.
God’s Plans.
But the peace was a below the surface peace, one that still fretted a bit on the outside (I don’t think I’ll ever get over that human fretting), but it was an impossible to describe peace that grew internally. It is one that helped me know, even when all was going wrong in my eyes, that things would be okay. That peace was a peace in stillness.
“Be still and know that I am God.”
Wait for it…
That stillness, that waiting
that doesn’t come easily for me .
But now, that peace is accompanied by a great Joy as so many things came together at once and all in God’s perfect timing, again it is a timing I could not have seen for myself. It is as though God started our lives anew last week. The busy-ness of this fresh start has kept me from writing for the first time in months, but all in good things. I feel like I have been reborn this week and hope to share that with you over the next few days.
I know I am going on and on and most have no idea what I am talking about so, here is a brief breakdown of what I will post more of in this coming week.
God’s Plans Come Together for His Perfect Timing
- Kaleb turned 5 and started kindergarten.
- I was called out of the blue for a teaching position in a Catholic high school – and I got the job!!!
- My annulment letter came in the mail, and I realized again that whatever happened with the annulment, the process was now over and I could be at peace with whatever direction that would mean for my life.
Peace. God’s Perfect Timing.
A week so busy and wonderful, I haven’t been able to write, but I have been able to begin life again, almost as though I had been reborn. Had one of these things happened, I’d have celebrated, but to have all three things occur so close together???
That is nothing short of a miracle – or at least nothing short of God’s perfect timing.
Please join me this week as I discuss God’s timing, teaching in a Catholic school, and the annulment letter.
Thank you to all of you who have been praying for my boys and me, reaching out with good wishes, and sharing stories of your own. Remain in Faith. God is here and He does care. He Loves you and has perfect timing for all He gives.
God Bless…
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@1MomAnd5Boys congratulations!
@NoWealthButLife Thank you so much! God Bless…
Congratulations! This was a great post for me to read right now for many reasons. God is so good. Can’t wait to hear more!
Thank you, Jenny! God’s plans and His timing are so much better than our own aren’t they? I’ve been overwhelmed with schoolwork, and tomorrow I want to post about 9-11 which had a significant impact on our family, but I hope to go into more happy details on this great week on Friday! Thank you so much again. I really look forward to the launch of your site, foreverymomm.com too!
I’ve been reading your blog off and on the last few months, and just want to extend a word of happiness for you on this recent gift of peace you’ve received! I have been divorced for 3 years, have a 4 1/2 year old son, and know how it is to wait, especially for word on the annulment. I know once the paperwork stating the annulment is complete and done, it’s like the chains are released and that book can be closed. I just wanted to let you know how glad it is to hear of God’s timing for you this week! And congratulations on your new job! How wonderful! God bless you and your boys!
Thank you so much Julie. Thank you for commenting, for reading, and for sharing. I often wonder if anyone reads this or if it’s doing anyone any good. I am so happy to hear from you, but I am also so sorry you are going through something similar. Divorce is so hurtful for everyone involved, but so few people really understand that. There were (are?) many times I’ve wanted to just throw my hands up and quit, but we must hold onto faith and to Trust in the Lord.
I Love that you wrote about the chains being released. I swore if my annulment went through, I’d post that song (Amazing Grace, My Chains Are Gone) all over the internet, but when the time came… it just didn’t seem to matter as much. I was busy doing other things, and besides, I didn’t need it played anywhere else, for anyone else. The song was in my heart (which may give you a hint about the annulment)! 🙂
God Bless you and your little boy tonight. I will pray for you both tonight. God Bless You.