About Single Mom Smiling

Single Mom Smiling is a hodgepodge of many things, but our lives are often a hodgepodge of many things; it’s when we try to compartmentalize, to order everything into our neat and tidy ideas of how life should be that we run into or biggest obstacles.

I thought about dividing the site into separate sites:  parenting, crisis pregnancy, faith, divorce, abandonment, societal issues, single parenting…the list could go on infinitely.

But that’s not how we live. Life is meant to be lived together, as a hodgepodge of things, not neatly compartmentalized.

And God was meant to be the common denominator in all of that hodgepodge, to bring a sense of order to the disorder we often bring on ourselves.

God, for me, is not something I lock away during the week and put on every Sunday for an hour at Mass.

God is with me when I wish Him, “Good Morning,” before putting my feet on the floor by my bed.

God is with me when I thank Him for that first cup of coffee – and its mountains of sugar and milk.

God is with me later when I step on the scale and wish I had cut back on that sugar and milk.

God is with me when I gently kiss my sweetly sleeping children to rouse them for school – and when they snarl back at me.

God is with me when I return for the umpteenth time, no longer gently kissing sweet little heads, but now voicing threats from the doorway at anyone who refuses to, “Get up, NOW!”

God is with me when I return to the school for the third time because, in their morning stupor, someone forgot something.

God is with me when I face a mountain of dirty laundry, a sink full of dirty dishes, and a roomful of clutter.

God is with me when I get rejected for that job I had my mind set on – again.

God is with me when I have time to shop but no money to spend on food.

God is with me when I work three jobs and have money but no time to shop for or prepare a meal.

God is with me when I’m scrambling to throw together a dinner for six.

God is with me when I’m exhausted and declare a mac and cheese from a box night and my applauding children make me wonder why I ever serve anything else.

God was with me as a child when I faced abuse and misunderstanding, when no one liked me, when I was ugly and dumb and good for nothing.

God was with me when I found out I was pregnant, when I became sick, when I thought that baby would have problems, and when my husband of 14 years suddenly left for a girlfriend he reconnected with on Facebook. God was with me on that horrible day when my husband texted me when our baby was just 3 days old to say he had filed for a divorce, and when I received my OP on Valentine’s Day 2 years after we had renewed our vows. God is with me when my children are sick, injured, hurting, and broken hearted, when the courts refused to enforce child support until the case was settled, when we had no heat, when social services turned me away because my paperwork said I should be getting support even though we were not. God was with me when I couldn’t afford Christmas or birthdays, when my house was foreclosed on and my credit was destroyed, when I was forced to settle, and when…when…when…

when my heart broke.

when my mind screamed.

when my body shook.

when I thought my world had ended.

God was with me.

God was even with me the night I took every Cross off our walls and threw them across the back yard.

Yes, God was even with me then.

And now, I have finally learned my lesson (I think! I hope! I pray!)

That I have finally learned and that in ALL things,

GOD WILL BE WITH ME,
AND I WILL BE WITH GOD

And that is when I realized that I was never good for nothing

that God doesn’t make anyone good for nothing,

but that it takes some of us a long time to realize that.

And that is why this website is a hodgepodge of all sorts of posts, and I think, I hope, I pray that in each of them, you find God is always a part of your life too and that there is a little something that draws you closer to His peace and Love and strength and Grace and fortitude and goodness.

We cannot compartmentalize life. It doesn’t come in neat little boxes with ribbons and bows and color coded labels.

Sometimes life is messy and ugly and scary and bad, but God is always there for all of us – whether you know Him or not, He knows and loves you in every part of your life and in all you do, and that is why this website is a hodgepodge of most things that are me.

Thank you for joining me in Single Mom Smiling.

God Bless…

4 Comments

  1. DEIDRE GRANT on August 11, 2018 at 2:48 pm

    I am so depressed and I read your notes GOD IS WITH ME (crying) NO FOOD, NO CLOTHES FR MY CHILDREN (GIRLS) nothing to go back to school with no where to turn, exhausted all my savings and coins,.hard to find help , trying to get a house, but I will not give me my children and I will not give you GOD BLESS YOU FOR YOUR NOTES.

    • Kerri Lynn on August 18, 2018 at 7:36 am

      Deidre, I am so sorry to hear this. I have heard from many women in desperate situations like yours. You are right when you say God is with you. I promise you that much. I don’t know where life takes you or what your next step is, but I know God Loves you and your girls so much. This is not the way He wanted life to be for you. You said you are trying to get a house. Where are you living now? Are you homeless? There are places we can go for help in tough situations. Many people think the government is the best (or only) option, but I have found getting involved in a local Church takes humility but provides Graces government handouts cannot.

      I sometimes take a few days to get back to people even via email, but please feel free to reach out to me at SingleMomSmiling@hotmail.com. I’d love to stay in touch. In the meantime, I am praying for you and your girls.

      God Bless…

  2. Heidi on February 6, 2017 at 1:08 pm

    Oh honey, I am so with you! Five boys (two of mine have special needs). Cheating husband. Ugly expensive divorce. And yet… Thanks be to God. For all things.

    • Strahlen on February 10, 2017 at 12:23 am

      Yep – James 1 hit me like a stack of bricks one day – Consider it all joy my brothers when you encounter various trials…” Check it out if you haven’t already!

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